I feel like such a disappointment to my family. My daughter is two and I’m her only friend. She stays at home with me because I’m afraid to send her to daycare. I’m afraid to leave her with family because I don’t know who will hurt or abuse her. And we only go out for walks or to the library for her to have interaction with other kids. I’m the only face she sees all day until her dad gets home around 7 and he’s so tired and busy or at the gym, she craves both our attention but I feel like I’m not giving her enough. And she’s only 2. Today is the first day I actually broke down into tears in front of her because I realized, she is the only person I am important to anymore. I would say I don’t want to live anymore but that wouldn’t be true.. the only reason I want to live is to protect her and try to make her happy. I don’t know what to do. If I go to work, I’ll have to worry about her and miss her all day. If I continue to stay home with her, she’s going to miss out on so much socially while she’s still small. I don’t have the car during the day and my husband works so much, I feel bad asking him to do stuff with her on his time off or asking to take her places that cost money because he’s already paying all the bills on his own. I want to do better for both of them but I’m struggling with myself and with life right now.