My baby is 10 weeks old. She has never been good with sleeping during the day ever since she was a week or so old. She sleeps great at night. 8 to 9 hours then will eat and go back down for another 2 to 3. However when it comes to napping during the day she absolutely refuses. If I hold her and rock her to sleep she will sleep on me for a while but I don’t really let her do that often because I don’t want her getting used to it. I get her down for maybe one 45 minute nap a day and a couple 20 minute naps and that’s it. She doesn’t like her swing and she hates being carried in a baby wrap. I don’t have time to eat, pump (I’m exclusively pumping and bottle feeding), shower, anything because I can’t put her down without her crying. I spend probably 4 hours during the day just attempting to get her to fall asleep. I feel like I’m losing my mind and break down crying on a regular basis. When my boyfriend gets home from work I always pass her off to him and really don’t even want anything to do with her for the rest of the night because I’m so emotional by that point. I’m still off of work for a couple of months and I’m not enjoying being a mom at all. I’m finding myself severely resenting her and I hate myself for it. I just wish she would be a normal normal baby so I could do something as simple as take a shower and just have a damn hour to myself. I’m feeling hopeless and feel like I am regretting choosing to be a mother