I didnt had a “birth plan” i was ready to go with the flow... well, thats what i thought... i had to be induce 2 weeks early due to high blood pressure, the medication for inducing me didnt do much, i had to be put in pitocin and after 5 attempts for the epidural i finally got it (not really at the end we find out the catheter was out, so no epidural) i have 5 disc compressing and nerves pinching so it was extremely painful... when i got home i just felt like i fail... i am a yoga teacher practice meditation, mindfulness, yoga, exercise in the fit ball during my pregnancy and at then end, to me, i felt that it was so rush, i had not control... so when i got home i felt that i was missing time with my belly. I am completely in love with my baby, i have so much gratitud in my heart, my family has been so helpful my husband has been great... but i found myself with tears running down my cheeks and a feeling of sadness within me.. also dont know why is a weird feeling for me.. i became so attached to my Dr. he was so good, so caring that i actually miss him.. thank you glow for letting me vent !