Miscarriage tattoo

Last Friday I went and had this cute sloth made, and I really love it. As with a lot of tattoos there is a story behind it, which I am going to share, both because I just want to vent, but also to normalise it for other people who has been in an similar situation.

Me and my husband have been trying for a baby for 2 years come August, and have been receiving fertility treatment since February. It has been an long journey filled with; frustration, painful tests, countless doctor visits, and hormone injections. Finally in May it happened, we got a positive pregnancy test. We were ecstatic and in total disbelief, it seemed too good to be true. And it turns out it was. After a lot of doctor visits and scans we were told that the pregnancy was terminated, and that I was having a miscarriage. I cannot even begin to describe how that felt. Luckily Christoffer is an amazing husband, and even though he was hurting as well he was an amazing support.

Christoffer's parents had bought a stuffed animal, a cute sloth, to give to the baby when it was born soon after we had announced our pregnancy. They gave it to me instead when we were told that the pregnancy had been terminated. It might seem silly, but it felt like that the sloth was the only thing we had left of our child, and having it nearby to hug and sleep with have helped a lot when I was overwhelmed with sadness and grief.

This whole ordeal has obviously been a horrible experience. But I wanted to get this tattoo to remind me of the positive things. I wanted to celebrate the fact that we actually succeeded and got pregnant, and I wanted something to remind me of the love we had for our child. This way I can always have our child with me, even though it never came to be. And what better way to remember our child than with a cute sloth?