Long story short. My beautiful, perfect son did not have an easy 1st month of his life. Preterm birth status, unexplained illness, PICU stay, blood tests, spinal tap, blood in poop, protein colitis... you name it, we dealt with it. He is healthy now and fully recovered although slightly behind on the developmental milestones he is catching up quickly!

Now here's my problem. I'm afraid of absolutely everything. He makes a funny noise or crosses his eyes briefly and I fly into what could be causing it. Google has not been my friend! Then there's the times that I dare to day dream or let my mind wander and I find myself imagining situations where he, or my husband, or I get hurt or die! I hate it, I want to cherish this time with my precious baby but my mind won't stop making up things to be afraid of!

So, could this be a type of postpartum depression? Maybe PTSD from his health issues early on? Has anyone else experienced something similar?