I hate my body.

I have been a big girl since I was young. I have always had an unhealthy relationship with food. And no matter what I do I can’t lose weight. I’m 235lbs right now and I’m 5’5 and almost 21. I had a miscarriage early May. And I blame my body. I want to be pregnant again so badly but I am scared that if I don’t lose weight I won’t be able to stay pregnant...