I cut myself off from someone I love very much. She...had issues with herself that I couldn’t fix for her. Last time I saw her was probably in April.

My boyfriend is cop.

He went to our local gas station last night.

He saw her there. Looking extremely thin.

She’s been using. I’m shattered to pieces. I tried my best. I tried to help her. We got into so many arguments because she didn’t understand I just wanted what was best for her...

My head hurts so much.

Why did this happen? I shouldn’t have let her go. I’m torn to fucking pieces.