I am the oldest of 4. Divorced. Diagnosed with PCOS. The only thing I want in life is to be a mom.

My brother, meet in March and is now married as of July 1. She's now expecting. She also shares my name.

Fast forward to now, I'm holding a negative test in my hands and my heart is beyond broken. Some stranger has entered my life, bearing a child and my name. Why does some stupid young girl get to have a baby and I don't. Why does my brother get to have a kid and he doesn't even want them.

I'm trying so hard. I want a baby so bad.