It hurts so much. Knowing that my baby is still inside of me but also knowing that it’s now in heaven. I’m trying to hold it together. I just want to explode. Why me? Why my baby? What did I do to deserve this? What did I do wrong? The drs said everything looks normal and there is no explanation. Monday I will have a d&c 💔

So thankful for my love. I couldn’t do this without him.

Update... I started bleeding lastnight with what felt like back labor. Still bleeding today and terrified about tomorrow. Really set in lastnight that a future I had for this baby will never happen.