I think I’m feeling some serious anxiety now about the financial burden of pregnancy and the terror of actually having the baby. I’m a teacher so I know that I’ve got 12 weeks of UNPAID 😧leave for FMLA and that’s it (other than the days I’ve saved from my days off bank). Then I found out that I’ve got to pay my insurance premium plus the amount the district pays for my coverage while I’m out. We make too much to get any assistance, but we pay so much towards student loan debt and regular bills that there’s nothing left each month. We need to move too, but we don’t qualify for home loans because of our debt ratio. We’re already having to deal with medical bills to cover prenatal care and it’s starting to get overwhelming.

I feel terrible for having thoughts that a late miscarriage would be a better financially than having to go without my income in January and try to cover costs of childcare. All of this makes me want to vomit.