I am a teenage mom. I was the perfect student and daughter. I could have went to college on a full ride. Then I met the man the I thought was the perfect guy for me. We had a good start. And then he started asking me to stop seeing people and to ALWAYS tell him where I was and where I was going at what time I would be home. Why there were people at my house. I remember it all so vividly. Everytime I pass the house that made me scared for my life, i feel my heart kick into overdrive. Then the memories come and some of them are pleasant and then ones that arent creep in and tell my why I did what I did. If I had stayed any longer I wouldnt of been able to get out. I was attracted to him. Kissing him felt so right. Like we fit together. Our hands fit so nicely. I was like this is it. This is the one. We fit like a puzzle piece. Or at least our bodies did. I wasnt like most women in a controlling relationship. I loved to piss him off. Cuz I knew he hated every bit of my temper and the rebellion. Truth be told I'm probably the reason it got so bad. But I didnt go quietly. I made him get so angry but we both had tempers. He brought out the worst in me. And I brought out the worst in him. Except his was way worse then I ever imagined. He would have people call him and tell him where i was if i was out somewhere i shouldnt be. He actually put a bug in my phone that told him my every move if my phone was on without me knowing. I denied it every time someone told me I needed to get out of there. And overtime I realized it. So i started taking screenshots of everything he sent me that was controlling and abusive. It took me two years. I got pregnant within 5 months of knowing him. I was on birth control but I was also sick so I had taken antibiotics which scrambled my birth control. I was a junior when I got pregnant. When I told him I thought I was pregnant he was happy. But then it got worse. I didnt tell my mom till I was 7 months because I didnt believe it myself until i started showing which was at 7 months. I had left him when I was 2 months and I broke him. I eventually crawled back to him thinking he was the best I could do and my daughter needed a father. When my mom learned that I was pregnant it was hard to find an OB that would take me so late. But I did find one and shes amazing. We learned i was like my mom. I was RH negative. My body should have fought the pregnancy like a virus. And there was something else that I cannot remember that should have made my child die in utero. I should have miscarried. But I didnt. I look at my little girl and thank god that he put her in my life. My little girl is such a blessing. It was so hard being a teenage mom. Anyways back to the screenshots of my controlling ex. I eventually told him I was leaving him and there was nothing he could do to stop me. He begged and threatened to kill himself and that it would be my fault. So I thought I was gonna end up in jail because it was through text and they would look through his phone and see what he said. So I stayed. I let him see our daughter a couple times but the one that really made me leave is when we were arguing and my daughter was in the car with us. I said something and he just flipped like a switch and he pulled him knife to my neck in the flash of second. I felt my life flash before my eyes. I opened my door and fell out of it. I ran away and wouldnt let him near me. As soon as he was nowhere near the car I ran and drove off. I was shaking. He did that with my daughter in the car. Had she been older I dont know what I would have told her if she seen that. Thankfully she was 4 months old. But i drove to a park and i cried silently so i didnt wake her up. I cleaned myself up so my mom couldn't tell I had been crying. I texted him later that night. And I said if he contacted me I would go to the police. And show them all the screenshots. I had and tell them everything. He said I didnt have the guts to. I told him watch and see. And that I hope he doesnt listen. So that he can go to jail and the other inmates would have a best time with him. He stopped. And that was the last time I heard from him. Now I have a loving fiance. I had been with him before my ex. And he forgave me. Now we have our own house, were engaged. He loves my daughter like his own. I never thought I would make it in life after he broke me. But i grew as a person and a mother. Now I'm so happy and we work together as a family. I wanted to share my story. So that maybe it reaches someone who needs to hear it and realizes that if somebody says you're nothing. That you cant do better than them. That you are unloved. You are NOT. You're beautiful. You can do anything you want. And you can be who you want. Dont listen to that anymore. You are everything somebody wants in life. So get up and know that you are strong. You dont need anybody in life. You only need yourself. You can do this.

Picture of my beautiful 2 year old babygirl, Kennadee Sage💕