I just need to let out my feelings without feeling judged. My son is nine months old & i just feel like my life has changed in a very strange way. I love my son but i feel like i'm trapped, like I can't do anything. His dad & I aren't together & he works pretty far so he only sees him when he's off. I feel like my son deserves a better parent, I don't feel connected to him and his dad makes it seem like I don't want him or that i regret having him & I had pre-natal & postpartum depression. I just feel like i have no one to talk about this with in fear that I will get called a terrible mother or that my son will be taken away from me & I love that little boy with all my heart, i can't lose him.