I just really need to vent...

My son is 4 months old. And I feel like I've been through so much since his birth. And I think I'm going crazy. The healing process from birth was traumatic for me. I still haven't been able to have sex with my husband. And we didn't get to while pregnant either, so it's been nearly a year since we've had sex. I had emergency gallbladder surgery about a month ago. And couldn't hold my son for two weeks because of the weight restrictions. He had to stay with family during that time. I've dealt with comments being made about my body from my own husband and family (in-laws and my own). My own grandma said to her friend as I was sitting right there "yeah, she was losing weight but she's gained some of it back. I'm disappointed." My own husband saying he's so attracted to me again now that I'm not pregnant anymore just two weeks after birth. His grandma saying "it just takes a while to lose the baby weight." Keep in mind I lost FIFTY POUNDS WHILE PREGNANT. It literally feels like my marriage is crumbling before my very eyes. We're no longer kind to each other. It feels like we say I love you and kiss goodbye out of habit anymore. And I went to the hospital yesterday for chest pains, they ran a bunch of tests to find no clots or anything that could be causing the chest pains. But they did find a module on my thyroid. So now I have to follow up with my doctor so they can do a scan to make sure it's not cancer. I feel like I'm losing my mind. There's so much wrong in my life right now that I don't see a solution to any of it. I want to be happy again so bad. But I don't know how anymore. Please pray for me. I really need it right now. 💕