Afraid to hope


I am 38 and have a wonderful little boy that just turned 6. I am thankful for him took me and my husband 10 months to conceive him and it was a very complicated pregnancy. We have now been trying to 22 months. I have been tracking my bbt and ovulation for about a year with no results. So for my last 2 visits from AF I decided maybe if I just stop worrying and tracking something will happen. Well this morning 5 days early I have light pick on the tp when I wiped. Hoping this means baby #2 if finally going to happen but also afraid that it’s just my body messing with me or that my time has passed for a baby. 🤞🏻that I get the joy of having a baby again.