Drinking to avoid disappointment

I miscarried in May—blighted ovum. My partner and I have just started to try again and I’m nervous. What if I miscarry again? We’d gotten pregnant on the first cycle, which blew both our minds, and then when we went in for our first ultrasound and learned the pregnancy was not viable our hearts were broken. Now, I feel like I’m continuing to have a glass of wine everyday as a means to “live my life” and avoid future disappointment. I have even found myself drinking more than I normally do when not TTC—I think I’m telling myself not to withhold daily pleasures but now overindulging in alcohol. Anyone else do this? For me overindulging is two to three glasses, just for frame of reference.