dear..him

I’ve moved on a lot from our relationship, but it still haunts me. I never know if I should’ve told an adult of what you did to me. You manipulated and used me for months. I wasn’t some “hook up.” It was a big deal to me and you went around lying and twisting the story to benefit you. You had this “dare” with your awful guy friends to record us having sex. I didn’t even find out until months later... and it wasn’t even from your mouth. You bullied and harassed me when I finally moved on.. instead of being happy for me. I never understood why you tossed our friendship out. I never understood why you were able to be so mean to me. My body insecurities got so much worse through the months of harassment. They’re holding me back from the guy who truly loves everything about me. Fuck you for never getting what you deserved. I shouldn’t ruined your life for what you did to me, but I always cared too much. Fuck you.