I’ve been feeling anxious about the thought of people being around my son.

People keep wanting to come over and meet him and hold him and the thought just makes me uneasy

I mean, meeting him not so much as people wanting to hold him.

And I don’t know if it’s because I have already had multiple people not give him back when I say to while he’s crying and try to soothe him themselves (even when I’ve said he needs to eat) or people who have kissed him when I’ve made it clear I don’t want him kissed

I’m much more comfortable when it’s one on one

But I just don’t feel like this is normal?

I see so many people talking about taking their babies out to family events or to parties or event having a meet and greet with baby.

And I feel uncomfortable with just taking my baby to my SO moms to a dinner with his family

And the thing is is there’s nothing wrong with them

They are wonderful beautiful amazing people

good with kids and are very responsible

My brother still hasn’t met my son and my son is 3 weeks old

My SOs sister still has not met him either.

I think I would be more comfortable with people coming to my home

Because I wouldn’t have to ask people to make accommodations when I go over to their homes?

And I don’t feel as anxious about having to set rules because it’s “my house my rule” mentality?

Like it feels rude going to someone’s house and asking someone to put their dogs up or to wash their hands or not to kiss him or to ask for space to breast feed.

I haven’t had to breast feed in front of a man before and I do cover up when I’m around my SO family (I don’t do it much when I’m around my own female family)

I keep telling myself when he gets older I won’t feel this way but I also feel like I’m lying to myself