When I was 12 year old I went to this church and had a church on the pastor he was 19 ( I’ve always had a thing for older guys) but anyway and somehow he knew so he took advantage of that and raped when he was done he told me not to never tell my parents or he could hurt allbof us so I didn’t. And I was so scared and I was shaking and as months went by he had raped me like 4-5 times but may 21 2016 was the last time he raped me and I have always remember that day because that was the day I saw him cum for the first time. So on Father’s Day he tried to rape me again but before he could my mom found us in a room and she called my dad and he started physical fighting him and by then somehow the whole church knew something had went on but they didn’t know what exactly. So after that day I wasn’t talking to my parents so my mom called my god sister and I told her everything . She is like a real life walking diary of mine. So I told her every thing detail of what happened and every altercation. She had me take a pregnant test and it had came positive but she wasn’t sure it was right because I had got my period and I was finna be on next one in a few days. But we still had to tell my mom and she blamed me for the situation. But it came to found out I was never pregnant and I had to go to consulting but I stooped because it wasn’t working but every since that whole experience i haven’t been the same. I cry a lot when it comes to days I remember when it happened and I feel sick to my stomach.