I love my fiancé more than anything and do want to be married to him. Just gonna state that right away. We’ve spent all summer planning the wedding and working very hard to pay for it. It’s in three days and classes start up again in a month. I’m going to be working even harder next month to make up for the money we’ve spent. My friend was just complaining to me about how she’s missing a family reunion to be in my wedding (I know she’s not meaning to be hurtful; she is very close to her family and misses them). She’s spent most of the summer in Colorado with her family doing really cool and fun things, and has more things planned for August. Talking to her just made me upset because it made me realize how much I want a normal summer. I know that I need to be an adult now but there’s still a part of me that just wants to go have fun one more time.