Gender disappointment - help!

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Mamas, I need your wise advice and emotional support right now:

Just found out my second baby is a girl. My first is a girl, and I was so so so hoping that I would be having a boy this time. When friends and fam asked, I just smiled and say, “as long as baby is healthy, I’m happy!” But secretly wished so much that we’d get a boy. I’m really disappointed and heartbroken, to be completely honest.

I feel so guilty for feeling this way, because I know so many friends who would be overjoyed just to have one child.

The guilt and disappointment are just a cycle of frustration for me right now. How did you all deal with gender disappointment??

Financially and help resource wise, this is prob it for us. We likely won’t be able to have a third. I’m also edging close to 40 so I don’t know if it’s in me to go through another pregnancy.

It makes me sad to know I will probably never have a son :(