Hi - I just want to rant about something I recently feel like I’ve been on the wrong side of for a while.

So - our first pic is from 4 years ago. I was NEVER more than 107lbs, I’d starve myself and take drugs like they were candy to help that habit. I was an anxious mess, depressed and all over a horrid person. But I thought I looked good. Tbh I thought I looked AMAZING. (Sometimes at my lowest now I still do) but I wasn’t healthy or happy AT all.

And our second picture was from a beach trip today - I’m in a wonderfully HAPPY relationship (marriage) with an incredible man who manages to make me fa deeper and deeper in love with him every day. I have healthy eating habits, have stopped using drugs to fill the void and tried my best to stop caring so much about my body.. but find it really hard. I’ve gained 20lbs since starting my relationship with my now husband and get SO hard on myself because of it.. and honestly realized with this picture I took of myself today.. that my body isn’t as bad as I see it in the mirror. Hello 130lbs. Though it’s not my favorite and I can still strive to be better, I’m just thankful that I have a loving husband who supports my effort to workout but adores me the way I am even more. He loved me when I was stupid skinny but loves the lil cushion I’ve gathered over the years because I’m a lot happier, healthier and better than I was before more.

That’s all.