I think I'm about to give up...

I'm started to get discouraged.. I'm 8dpo. And I'm not feeling much different.. my husband and I have been ttc what seems like forever. And everytime we test...we get a BFN..and not only does is bream my heart...it breaks my husband too. My husband is my absolute best friend in the entire world. And when we test and get a BFN...he gets so down and out.. and we are both so depressed for days. And last month I found my husband crying which he never does.. I feel like I've let him down or something. I'm so scared to test....I can't see him be so heart broken again. He times everything out and he helps me keep track of my cycle. And he knows when it's time for me to test...or i wouldn't tell him I was testing! Everyone has been asking for months when we are going to have a baby. And it instantly depresses us both. We've tried everything. I hope and pray this is our month...if not...if think I'm going to give up on ever having a dream of children..