I broke myself...💔

I continued to love someone who didn’t give me the love I deserved and treated me the way I deserved..i feel like it’s my fault I’m hurt cause I continued to love all the good memories and tried to Bury the terrible ones.i didn’t want to let go of 3 years but today was the day,and I just feel so heartbroken cause I thought he was the one i thought he cared,I feel my anxiety and trusted issues ruin my relationship and he blocked me and told me that he’s not going to unblock me till I act right all cause I wanted him to text me back and now he’s just out with his friend probably drinking and I’m in bed heart broken because I’m always the reason why we fight,idk I just feel like everything my fault..

I’m sorry I don’t have anyone to talk to,he’s my only friend...