Nervous to find out gender this week

You guys. I find out gender on Thursday or Friday depending on sneakpeek. I am so scared. I have 2 boys and want a girl soooo bad. This baby was a surprise! My oldest is almost 3 and youngest is 15 months. I have been such an effing wreck going insane in my mind praying for my girl. I will love baby no matter what. I will still yearn for a girl tho if it’s a boy. I can’t keep having kids till I get a girl my hands will be so full with 3 so young. What can I do to feel better if it comes back boy? I’ve never been so stressed on top of morning all day sickness and keeping up with my boys. I’m up late stressing. It’s all taking a toll on me.