Hello everybody!

I don’t have many people I can really open up to, but I’ve been feeling really down lately I’m 20, work full time but I’m just not feeling myself. The past couple of weeks I’ve been in up and down moods, one minute I’m happy, the next I feel completely numb and other times I feel like crying and I couldn’t even tell you why. I’ve been through a lot this past year, my uncle unexpectedly died in may, my sister moved to Yorkshire in April and I feel so alone, I have a boyfriend which I’ve been with for 4 years but I just don’t know how I’m feeling about anything. My boyfriend is very laid back, doesn’t want to do much with his life would rather live at home.. whereas me? I just signed up to become a model and I thought I’d be happy but I’m not. I want to start saving for a place, travel all that stuff and I feel completely on my own. I just don’t know what to do anymore😩 I’ve always imagined having a partner who wants to do everything, like travel, get married own our own house but I just feel like it’s never going to happen, I had a psychic reading the other day and the woman said I will find new love my career will change etc but I’m just not feeling it.. anyone else ever felt like this? Sorry for ranting and going on and on but feels like I’ve finally got this off my chest💔