Hey Mama’s,

I’m laying here dreading falling asleep, because I know when I awake the cycle begins and I will be vomiting for hours. I’ve tried everything. I just sobbed this morning in the shower, I got myself together knowing I’d get to see my little one today.

Jokes on me. My midwife wouldn’t do an image or check for a heartbeat. I just felt so defeated after two and a half weeks of hell and not even getting a glimpse of my nugget.

So I wait another four to eight weeks even though I’m eight and a half weeks. 🤷‍♀️ I’m just ready for a break or some relief, each day is getting harder. I feel like I’m on the gravitron at the Fair and the ride just won’t stop when it happens. My doctors have tried two different nausea meds, at this point I’m using cannabis to eat. So many people keep telling me they never even threw up, I can’t fucking stop! If you had or have severe morning sickness what made a difference for you?

Your girl is desperate and exhausted.

❤️❤️❤️