I don't really know what I'm feeling at the moment. This morning I found out I conceived twins, but there was no heartbeat in either. One was 8 weeks 3 days, one 8 weeks and 4. Today I would have been 8 weeks and 5. Huge shock as I've never known twins in my family, ever. 

I still need to miscarry, but I really don't know what's best for me. I don't want them just disgarded. I'm worried I'll miss them and flush them without knowing. I don't feel guilty about the loss, but I know I will if I do that.

I'm nervous about surgery because there is always risk, but also don't want to be in severe pain and miscarry at work. 

I don't want them to be just "thrown out".

Does anyone have any experience they wouldn't mind sharing? The thing Most important to me is what happens to them.