Since being diagnosed with pcos the beginning of this week I haven’t been myself at all I knew before even going to the doctors I had pcos but since actually going through all the tests scans everything and being told I have polycystic ovaries I’ve been in floods of tears I’m the only person in my family who has pcos and it’s all because of my hormones having a high level of testosterone and it makes me so upset like I wish to know why me ... I’ve been in a bad state I’ve had very bad weight gain since all the symptoms started to happen just over a year ago I started to put weight in like had I was very slim as my previous relationship my ex made me feel like shit didn’t accept my body for what I am so I went to the gym and lost eight skimmed down and dumped his ass. I was starting a new chapter of my life leaving school for good and starting my new job and and becoming a adult met someone who loved me for me and treats me like I’m the only girl in the world had a few ups and downs with my ex turning up at my door and calling me 70 times a day because he knew he had lost an angel the best girl he ever could of had but his fault his actions him putting his hand to my face biting me leaving bruises and marks everywhere I didn’t need that type of relationship so I’m glad he is no where to me seen ( currently in court he sexually assaulted his sister for 10 years starting when she was 7 🤮) anyway my relationship now 2 years on we started thinking of starting a family everyone kept thinking there surprised I’m not pregnant as we never used contraception I kept thinking am I dodging a bullet here but really the missed periods was a sigh of what can change my life slightly I put in weight 4st to be exact I started losing hair my hair was thick long down to my waist now currently shoulder length i haven’t had a periods since November 2018 it’s August 2019 now and since going back and forward to the doctors so many times in the past few months I’m going tomorrow morning to see what options I have which is more likely going to be medication to kinda get my body to have a period so I have to wait a few years now before I can even start having a family really upsetting as everyone is now announcing that there pregnant and I’m stuck on my bed being depressed sleeping my life away working until 11pm sleep repeat I just hope for the best and get the support I need my family and parents in laws understand what is happening and that I will struggle and I just don’t see anything happing at least for 8 years so I’d better get saving to spoil my future child. I’ll update tomorrow after the doctors appointment sorry for the long story this had been building up for a while and there no one else I can talk to other than my other half who knows everything 😩😩❤️