I was crazy to think him and I could ever happen. He’s so smart and he’s always there for me and he’s so understanding and I’m just me. I thought he liked me but there was no way to be sure but now it just feels like everything’s gone. Whenever I talk to him, it actually feels like someone I want in my life, even if it’s only for a short period of time. I spent so much time messing around with guys I never knew what it was like to actually want someone and now it feels like he’s someone I could be happy with. He’s everything I’ve ever wanted. He’s sweet. He listens. He understands. And he knows just how to make me laugh. No matter the situation he always makes me smile at the least. When we talk he always knows exactly how to make me feel better if I have a bad day. But to think him and I could ever be a thing was crazy. I’m just some sad bitch and he’s perfect in every way. Honestly, he’s all I want, but nothing I’ll ever have.

UPDATE:

Ok it’s not a huge deal but apparently he likes me back and he wants to talk in like 10 minutes to discuss things and now I’m just devastated in a good way