Regretting my abortion months later.

So I had an abortion January 2019. I was almost 8 weeks pregnant and chose the medical abortion. I did this because of not wanting to be a single mom (the father of the baby wanted nothing to do with me or the baby), not having a stable job, emotionally and mental problems i have and a bunch of other reasons. I am also pretty young and had just turned 21 at the time. I was sad initially after the procedure and felt a lot of regret. A few months after it though, I started feeling relief and like i could carry on with life. However, it is now August and I realize I would have been due in two months and it just is like a slap in the face. I felt like I regret my choice and thought a lot about adoption, because I wasn't ready to be a parent. Everyone talked me out of it saying it would be a bad decision, but from my perspective I saw it as at least I could give my child a good life and see them be born and grow up instead of never knowing what could have came from the pregnancy. Idk. No one seems to understand how i feel about it. If I could go back and be pregnant again I think I would, I would just surround myself with supportive people instead of people who made me second guess myself 😔