Struggling

I am struggling. I’m struggling with self hate and depression. I haven’t told anyone or talked to anyone about because I just feel so alone. I moved away for all my family so all I have is my SO and my baby girl. I don’t have friends. I only get to talk to my family over text and video chats. But I just don’t feel like I can talk to anyone about this. I feel ashamed to have these feelings. It’s like my daughter should be enough for me to be happy and she is she my whole world but i can’t seem to shake this empty feeling. I’m just lost and don’t know what to do or where to turn. Also I feel on the verge of an eating disorder and a nervous break down.