So me and my friend have been friends for over 9 years and thus summer we went out on a date and when we kissed it honestly felt like magic. I was so confused and shocked (in a good way). And because I was previously in an abusive relationship I’m still a little skeptical of letting men be part of my life again. But being w him and knowing that he has been my friend makes things so much better and the fact that he’s being this nice to me and perfect makes me feel so loved and special and I’ve never felt like that before. I’m going away for a year and he’s currently completing his military service so we’ve been and gonna be pretty busy and distant as well which scares me to see this going wrong and even though he’s calmed me down and told me that we gotta do this and that things are gonna be fine w us there’s a side of me that is terrified of losing this because of how good it has been and idk how to keep myself calm because I don’t wanna add that pressure to him. Ahh I’m just gonna leave this convos here :)