I had my perfect son today at 35 weeks. He’s early and doing so well.

A few weeks ago my long term boyfriend and father of both my kids cheated and we split up. I tried to work it out with him and he said just the love wasn’t there.

He’s an amazing father and a great dad and also my best friend. I let him continue to be apart of everything in the hospital. We still live together and coparent beautifully.

But I found out today that I cannot have any more kids. I’ve had two very risky pregnancy with early babies and my uterus just won’t handle a another pregnancy

I can’t help but feel lost. I feel as though I gave my life to someone and had his beautiful kids, and now I am forced to move on and have nothing to offer a future relationship. Like, I gave this guy the best parts of me.

And while I’m sitting here in the hospital, he continues to make comments about how I should ask for help and is upset that I don’t need it.

Granted I’m in a lot of pain and could use it. But I’m a single mom now and I have to get used to a new baby, pain or no pain.

And when he gets mad about it, I just want to yell at him and tell him I’m doing it alone because he forced me too not because I want to.

I just feel like everything is falling apart and I just need some good ‘mommy womanly love’ over here please 😭😭😭😭

(Edit)

It’s not that I’m not letting him help. I’m breast feeding so I’m putting him to breast and pumping every two hours for him.

He’s changed all the diapers so far and there’s just not much else he could do in those aspects