I had my perfect son today at 35 weeks. He’s early and doing so well.

A few weeks ago my long term boyfriend and father of both my kids cheated and we split up. I tried to work it out with him and he said just the love wasn’t there.

He’s an amazing father and a great dad and also my best friend. I let him continue to be apart of everything in the hospital. We still live together and coparent beautifully.

But I found out today that I cannot have any more kids. I’ve had two very risky pregnancy with early babies and my uterus just won’t handle a another pregnancy

I can’t help but feel lost. I feel as though I gave my life to someone and had his beautiful kids, and now I am forced to move on and have nothing to offer a future relationship. Like, I gave this guy the best parts of me.

And while I’m sitting here in the hospital, he continues to make comments about how I should ask for help and is upset that I don’t need it.

Granted I’m in a lot of pain and could use it. But I’m a single mom now and I have to get used to a new baby, pain or no pain.

And when he gets mad about it, I just want to yell at him and tell him I’m doing it alone because he forced me too not because I want to.

I just feel like everything is falling apart and I just need some good ‘mommy womanly love’ over here please 😭😭😭😭