Some back story:

My husband and I have suffered with fertility issues for over 10 years now. Obviously when I was younger, I didn't really mind that i wasn't able to get pregnant- I was still in school and life was hectic already. For the past 5 years however, I've gone from being okay with things to terribly devastated and depressed. This past year has been the hardest as all my closest friends have had their first or even second children...

One of my very best friends just called me the other day and told me before she told anyone else that she is pregnant with her second. I was a little shocked because her first just turned 1 and she said she wanted to wait til December to start trying for a second but she now thinks she is 2 months along. I didn't really know what to say except that I was happy for her and I can help in anyway she needs... but when we got off the phone and ever since, I've been insanely jealous and even a little ticked about things. I know it's not logical to be angry with her for getting pregnant when she can and wants to... but I just can't seem to help it.

My husband and I are going through fertility specialists and start medications next month that hopefully will turn out luck around but how do I stop being so jealous about this?