Feeling hopeless

I’m just at that point where I contemplate suicide every day. I’m just so tired and I never seem to have time to do everything. I know people have it worse than I but I’m just so tired of being the only one putting in effort. My husband keeps telling me that everything gets better and that I should have more faith in him but when I do he always plays on his PlayStation and never does any of the stuff I ask him to do. My kids are both in the toddler stages and the both have meltdowns over every. Single. Thing. And it’s just getting so hard to balance them, my husband, my house work, and my actual job. I just want a break and when I ask for a date night I’m the one that has to plan it and I’m just to tired by the end of the day to plan anything. I work 10 hour days through Monday through Friday and I’m the one who wakes up with our kids and I’m the one who puts them to bed at night. I just feel like I’m at my breaking point and I have no time to get any help... I’m just not sure what to do anymore.