Not TTC related but wasn’t sure where to post this..

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SORRY THIS IS SO LONG!! I JUST NEEDED TO GET IT OFF MY CHEST!

So I don’t really have anyone to talk to about this..

I was raised catholic. I have always believed in God and heave and hell. When my husband and I started dating, I hadn’t been to church in years and we both decided we wanted to start going back. He was also raised catholic. We decided to go to a non denominational church. We loved it!! We would go every Sunday. It was so amazing to feel God and to worship God. I didn’t want to miss a Sunday and couldn’t wait for Sunday to get here so we could go to Church. In January 2017 I had a miscarriage and began to question my faith. I know it was just a test. We continued to go to church and I still felt God with me! We got pregnant again in May 2017. Shortly after we found out we were pregnant, I stopped feeling God with me and slowly started to pull back from church and eventually we just stopped going.

Recently, I’ve been questioning my faith and whether or not I believe in God all together. I want to have faith and I want to believe but something is pulling me back.

I’m not sure if y’all believe in signs but the other day I was driving the kids home from story time at the library (I watch my little cousins). One of my little cousins, completely out of nowhere, started talking about God and how we wouldn’t be alive without him. About how much she believes and loves him. She’s 5 and her family goes to church every Sunday. As a matter of fact they go to my old church. Anyways, while she’s talking about God, a song comes on the radio called spirit in the sky. This song holds a very special place in my heart. It’s my uncles song, and he passed away when I was 10. My son is named after him.

It all just gave me goosebumps and honestly made me realize God is still with me.

Anyone else ever just lose faith and God hits ya in the head and says open your eyes?!