Since becoming a FTM I feel like I've sort of lost myself physically. I don't do makeup, my hair is tied up 97% of the time, I don't do my nails(never did other than occasionally paint anyway) and I wear the same 3 outfits all of the time. I feel like I just need to "re-do" myself. Any time I want to spend money on myself though my fiancé has to make a huge deal about it. We don't have a ton of money, but we are comfortable enough to spare some here and there so I can feel like a human again. So I can feel somewhat put together. But he has to get all pissy any time I spend a little bit, and its never on myself.