I dislike my body!

Had an odd period....not sure if or when I ovulated....I had 4 days of vvl brown spotting, only when I wiped. I am now considered "3 days late" and nada! I have tons of creamy egg white cm too. I had a horrid case of neausea yesterday morning but not this morning. I have no symptoms. Took this with a 3hr hold (dipped) I think it's a negative. I'm not sure when or if I should test again. These are my lasts tests I'm taking for a while.

My cervix feels in the middle of hard and soft and it's low. Not sure if that means anything. 😭 I just want my rainbow baby.