Gifts from above in the waiting

I have a 13 month old that was conceived with a some help from doctors and a huge blessing from God and three years of waiting. We went back to our reproductive endocrinologist to see what the process will be for the next pregnancy. Turns out my PCOS has gotten worse from two years ago and she thinks it may be a bit more difficult than it was last time. I cried the whole way home from the doctor and then got a call from a friend with PCOS that was in the midst of a miscarriage for the 4th time. It was such a reality check. We were told it may be hard, but we haven’t experienced loss like that. My heart shatters for those with holes in their hearts from loss. That night, I was laying in bed praying and asking God if I’ll ever experience newborn life again or if this one child is it for me. In the morning a friend called saying her baby is 4 days old, she’s home, she’s exhausted and can I help. I have spent 3 evenings getting my little one tucked in and racing over to her house so hold this precious newborn while she and her husband sleep. God heard me and turned His grace towards me. Not even 24 hours after my prayers, I was holding a newborn. God is good, all the time.