But where I live, finding somewhere that will allow me to work during school hours is next to impossible (oldest starts in September), as is finding childcare for a 4 month old (though by the time my oldest is in school my youngest will be 6 months). And then, even if I could do that, I'd then have to find childcare for my 4 year old during the breaks...

It probably doesn't help that I can't drive, or afford to learn how to without a job, and my partner works long hours already. I have no family nearby that could help either, the closest person is an hour away, and also doesn't drive.

I'm tired of trying. I'm tired of not getting anywhere. I'm tired of wanting to better myself and having no way of achieving it. I'm tired of not contributing to the household (yes, as a SAHM I do the majority of the childcare and housework, but financially I'm not helping).