Giving up

Rachael • 19 Mumma to a baby girl born June 2020

So I was trying to fall pregnant with this guy for a while now and he has now decided he doesn’t want to do it anymore (he was like a friend with benefits and pretty much acting as a speed donor). But I’m just so heart broken because I really really want to get pregnant and the fact I’ve been trying for like 10 months makes it so so so hard :(( I thought I finally got pregnant last month because my period was 11 days late and then it came and now I’ve just been so so depressed. I have been crying myself to sleep and I keep seeing things of people getting pregnant and having babies young and accidentally falling pregnant and I’m just giving up on hope now because I don’t know what I can do now to get pregnant.... I just don’t want to be here anymore I can’t do it 😭😭