Relationships suck

Platonic, romantic, whatever it is they suck. Everyone only wants money, my love, anything that benefits THEM in the end. Obviously I am left bc once people get what they want they leave. I guess I’m easy to manipulate and It’s easy to take advantage of my niceness. It doesn’t matter if it’s family or friends etc everyone uses me. So when I’m alone with my thoughts I’m sad. I’m confused. I cut a lot of people off this passed year bc I am learning to finally take a stand for myself. It sucks bc I question everyone’s loyalty to me. I question whether or not I’m being used even if I’m not. I take the verbal abuse, I take the begging for money I take the do this do that. But, what will other take for me? Absolutely nothing. So here I sit, alone and upset with no one to speak about it to except myself.