Hi I am looking for advice and maybe your own experience. I am having to have spine surgery when my little one hits six months in November. I was told today I wouldn't be able to breast feed at that point. I also wouldn't be able to bend twist or pick our baby up for a couple of months. I am so bummed right now. I wanted to be able to make it for 1 year. But medically I cannot put off my health any longer. Today I have been just crying so please be kind. Do you have any advice?

Just to answer questions

1. Surgery is a spinal cord stimulator with paddle leads. Also the removal of an old stimulator and generator.

2. The reason I could not continue would be medications.

3. When I had this procedure done in the past I had a morphine pump and a ketamine pump. Plus neurological medications and muscle relaxers.

Please be kind I don't need to be kicked when I am down. I have so much guilt right now and I have so much fear of what the future is going to be. I will have to give up being the go to person for my baby and rely on family. Last time I had this surgery I had to live in a nursing home and had to learn to walk again. I am very worried and adding the pressures of pumping while going through all of that is not the greatest realistic plan.