I give up. 😢

1 year trying with cycles that are 32-40 days and now all of a sudden it wants to be 25 or 28 days. I legit give up. I'm so sick of trying, I'm so sick of ovulation tests and apps and contraptions, I'm so sick of being disappointed, I'm so sick of seeing the hurt in my husband's eyes, I'm so sick of crying, I'm so sick of sacrifices. I just give up.