My BF is going to be 33 next weekend, and I'll be 25 in December.

Let me start by saying that I'm absolutely in love with him, and there couldn't be a more perfect man for me.

But GODDAMN! Since day one, before we were even in a relationship I've dealt with his baggage and baby mama drama, harassment from her and her BF(now husband) etc...

We've been together for 2 years, and if you count our FWB for nearly 2 years before that we've really been together for 4. And apparently one shitty 7 year marriage can keep a man from marrying someone who's actually fucking worth it. "It's just a piece of paper." "It makes everything harder." "It ruins everything.".... But i feel like it's just me... He says it's not but how,am i supposed to feel like it isn't? When he married his bitch of an ex-wife? Like if she was worth it then how the hell am i not?!

I stopped my BC because he kept bringing up baby names. But he tells me he doesn't want to have a baby, "But if it happens, it happens...."( i have a 5yro boy and so does he and a 9yro daughter.) Like..... Thr fuck my guy?

Date nights are always the same, even when i offer up new ideas (dinner and then some unnecessary shopping or dinner and a movie then hime to sleep)... Our sex life is non existent. He eats me out ALL the damn time which is AMAZING, but damn....

I get it.... You lived life and did shit with your ex...,. But that wasn't me. I don't understand what would be so awful about experiencing things WITH ME.... And it fucking hurts y'all...

Here I am at 24 raising another womens children for the man, watching everyone around me get married, get engaged, have children.... And after 2 years, it's still not a topic of discussion for us....

He's my best friend... We NEVER fight, we argue but that's normal, but we have never really faught. And we're literally perfect together... I don't understand 😔😔

Posting anon. Just because. Please don't say anything bad or hateful guys! He really is a great guy. He just hss his shit fucked up apparently.