Ladies, I need help!

Our sex life is literally a routine. He will kiss me, push my head down so I’ll give him head, then grabs my hair to climb on top of him and I’ll ride him until he cums.

I’ve told him how I love my body being touched, I want to use toys, I want to have fun and not have to watch porn to get off. We’ve had many talks about this and I think it’s going to work every time, but nothing has changed over the past two years 😔

Now I’m thinking, is there something I can do? He never asks me or seems interested in me wearing lingerie (even tho his YouTube history is filled with women trying on lingerie 🙄), I don’t have money to buy toys (SAHM, he has the money) and am also so scared of being turned down and affecting my self esteem. We’ve watched porn together multiple times but now when I ask, he turns it down and sticks to the same old routine.

I feel so unwanted compared to friends who’s men love to keep them satisfied. I can’t help but feel like I don’t do anything for him.