My husband and I have two kids and I’m 36 weeks pregnant with our third. We’ve been together for 10 years and married for 5. He’s had a history with depression in the past but it hasn’t been an issue for years. He was a casual marijuana smoker (never around me or the kids) but recently he has become very unhappy with his job and has stopped smoking in order to find something new. He works for a family company and they are behind on paying him by about $8000, and even though we have a hefty savings and are very comfortable financially this is really stressing him out. He seems to fall into a deep depression every single time he runs out of weed or decides he’s giving up so I honestly dread it because I know my life will be miserable until his moods even out. His job let him know yesterday that they didn’t think his job performance was where it should be and I think he feels embarrassed because he had been saying how he feels that he’s better than everyone else who works there. Since he quit smoking his moods have been lower than ever but he’s refusing to address it. I’m walking on egg shells around him at home and being this pregnant with two other kids under 4 its becoming increasingly harder for me to ignore his moodiness. Today I called him when he got off work as usual and he didn’t answer but text me saying he had a bad day at work (which has been the general mood everyday for the month since he stopped smoking). He got home at 3pm and brought home fast food for us. Didn’t say a word to me and then when I asked what was wrong he said he didn’t want to talk about it and to leave him alone. He then went to bed at 330pm and when I asked what he was doing he said he had a bad day and he’s going to bed for the night and he definitely doesn’t want to talk about it with me. I got on our MacBook and because it’s linked to his Apple account I saw he had been googling life insurance policies on his phone right before he got home so now I’m scared out of my mind and have no idea what to do. I know the stress of all of this is bad while I’m pregnant but this is impossible not to worry about. I’ve begged him to get on anti depressants since he’s been this down and he refused stating that he would never do it because if he got on them and then ran out he would kill himself and he can’t risk it. He also claims he’s not depressed he just hates his life and has said before if it wasnt for me and the kids he would have killed him self a long time ago. What do I do here? Do I to wake him and demand he tell me what’s going on? I’m afraid to let him leave for work tomorrow Incase he’s planning to do something to himself. Advice would be greatly appreciated.