Help on baby shower pleaseee

My mother in law wants to throw me a baby shower and I do not want one bc my hubby works out of town and he will not be home till the baby is due and we lost one of our babys at 34 weeks pregnant and we didn't get to do anything together with that pregnancy and I dont feel right doing anything with this pregnancy with out him here !! Am I wrong ?? Should I let he throw a baby shower??

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