Let me first say that my husband and I have only been TTC for 5 months, and there are women here who have been trying for much longer, and they are warriors! Got another BFN negative today, after being 5 days late on AF, after weird symptoms and a cycle of tons of sex and no stress. Kicker being I took a test this morning, threw on thong underwear and said to myself “because you tested today, and because you put on cute underwear, you are definitely going to start your period today.” AND I F**KING DID.

With each month that has passed without conceiving, I think back to the last 13 years of birth control, doing everything in my power to NOT get pregnant. And now? Well it’s not as easy as it seems. My husband is so positive, he tells me it’ll be okay and it’ll happen when it happens but it’s hard to be positive the day you get your period and the cycle starts again. But a girl just needs to rant, to be negative for a few days, to feel defeated. We really thought this cycle would be it. We had almost two weeks of vacation, no work, no phones or internet. Just fun and sun with people we love. And we had sex almost daily before, during and after my peak ovulation days. So what’s not working? What am I missing? I’m only 29, I was really hoping it would come naturally. I know, it hasn’t been that many months. I’m just frustrated. If tons of sex and no stress won’t cut it, what else can we do? I just wish I knew the secret. My husband wants nothing more in life than having children, and i can’t help but feel like I’m disappointed him each month even tho he assures me I’m not.

Anyways, rant over. Baby dust to me and all you badasses out there! ❤️